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Unspeakable

2006-10-31T02:38:00.000+08:00

Silent scream lost in the tides
Vacant church of sins
Fragile dreams of perverse rapture
Sorrow weepingly clings

Empty heartbeat soulless depth
Lover’s kiss forlorn
Bitter coldness spiteful wind
The night shall never dawn

Alphabet soup

2006-06-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

A – Angel

Fallen angel
Penchant sins
Bloodied hands
Never come clean

B – sleeping Beauty

Beauty in slumber
Pretty no more
Broken hearted
Worthless core

C – Catch

Deadly game
Of hide and seek
Catch the frail
And lynch the weak

D – Death

Death brings us together
Sorrow in heart
Grievous pain
As it tears us apart

E – Epitaph

Here lies the body
Of a suicide man
Wanting to die
And I gave a hand

F – Family

Opulence life
The children atone
Of fancier houses
But broken homes

G – Gracile

Careless words of voiceless whisper
The headless dreamer mourns for her past
Lurid eyes of blinded faith
For all of truth from flesh to dust

H – Heaven

Upon the gates of heaven
But to find no one there
Crushing all belief
Adding to despair

I – Illume

God black beckons
To shadowy light
Darkness so bright
Thou shall lose sight

J – Jaded

Faded rose with broken thorns
Tender heart gone cold
Putting on a inane show
Sifting through the world

K – Kill joy

That tainted belief
We clingingly hold
To someday find
The truth unfold

Where do we run?
With all conviction gone
To persist with life
Or be haplessly torn?

L – Lullaby

Be enticed by her softness voice
Darkened dreams it brings
Never awake to the hurtful world
Listen when the voidness sings

M – Masses

Empty dreams
The imprudent sought
For all of think
But little thought

N – Nocturne

Sunken moon’s
Tragic call
Sweeping tides
Lovingly adore

Darkness breath
Nostalgic calm
End of days
Moon kill sun

O – One

One to me
Is night or dawn
One to me
Is right or wrong

P – Pain

Where there is life
There is pain
Only then
It keeps me sane

Q – Question?

Too many answers
Too few question
Too much faith
Too little caution

R – Rain

Swirling drops
From vertical eye
Dance their dance
Of heaven’s cry

S – Salvation

Far from salvage
Far from sane
With each passing day
All hope wanes

T – Tears

Broken chalice
Of choking tears
In them lies
All my fears

U – Utopia

Abundance land
For a devout role
Spotless faith
But polluted soul

V – Vote

Veiled dictator
Democrat rule
Vote the vote
And live a fool

W – Wash away

Forgotten words of a lover's song
Weepingly sculptured in timeless sand
Gone with the tides of coming surf
Reminisce past in delusion lands

X – sorrow X

Death of one
Tragic scene
Death of all
By every mean

Y – Yesterdays

Dearly past
That glorious fame
All be gone
In the name of shame

Z – Zeal

For all of zeal
The religious preach
The poor be poor
The rich be rich

For all of sight
To never see
The blind be blind
The dead be free

X Collect ２

2006-04-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

Belief

Wad of belief
The foolish cry
When all they see
Are nothing but lies

Ignorant bliss
Not for long
Crushing faith
The nightmare dawns

Painted black
With despair
Fragile heart
Death shall tear

Empty Full

Why even struggle?
On life already damned
Or do yer not see
That wretched end?

Far from salvage
Far from sane
With each passing day
All hope wanes

Goodbye to life
Haplessly cruel
Being empty
I finally feel full

Pray For Night

Listen to silence
Of sleepless dead
Starving souls
May they be fed

Deathly hymn
In sorrow ways
Whisper breath
Sing of decay

Sleepless dead
Frozen sight
Awaiting darkness
They pray for night

~ sorrow x~

X Collect

2006-03-27T13:13:00.003+08:00

Chaos Sanctuary

Upon the night
Crying rain
Flooded seas
Of mind insane

Shambled soul
Forever loom
Tangled up
In mental cocoon

Putrid flowers
In deathly trance
Shadow symphony
In agony I dance

Drowning Sleep

Bodies in my backyard
Frozen in soundless scream
Haunting ghosts in the attic
That dreadful clawing dream

Drowning tears of grief
The eyeless wildly bleed
Pregnant womb of filth
The dead hungry feed

Fading distant sobs
Of a pallid headless child
Mouth full of secrets
To never able tell

Heaven

Silent tears
Of angel cry
Subtle carols
Faintly sigh

Whisper death
The fallen loom
Forgotten echoes
In moldy tomb

Dusty throne
Bow to hon
Of a god
Long since gone

~ sorrow x ~

HorrorScopes

2006-02-18T13:13:00.000+08:00

ARIES

Gold-fleeced Ram
Commencing spring
Ruled by mars
War thou brings

Sacrifice lamb
To odious rage
Ensnared within
Temper’s cage

Sight be blind
By anger mist
Never to find
That obvious gist

TAURUS

Death star Venus
Bringer of blight
Mask of Zeus
Toro white

Grievous resent
Callous heart
Denial peaks
Pitiable carp

Tearful remorse
Futile hide
All to save
Such little pride

GEMINI

Heavenly twins
Unite in bane
Death of one
Mournful pain

Tempest moods
To never still
Conflict tides
Succumbing will

Side of light
Ethical turf
Assimilate by
Darkness half

CANCER

Summer’s breath
Crustacean claw
Vain thou halt
Of Hydra’s fall

Amidst rose red
Lie the thorns
Sensitive beau
In ghastly form

Speak of heart
Anguish clamor
Sorrow words
Gothic manner

LEO

Samson’s mane
Glorious rays
For thy strength
A price to pay

Beckoning lust
Delilah’s call
Upon the virgin
Sun shall fall

Bullish hunger
To ever scour
Avarice gold
Fictitious power

VIRGO

Lady harvest
Giver plenty
Upon the lands
Oblivious many

Finicky nature
Critic tongue
Deliverance good
Bequeathed harm

Blasphemy heaven
Demonic flood
Lustful feast
On menstrual blood

LIBRA

Goddess Themis
Justice scales
Forlorn sigh
Autumn’s hail

Hesitant psyche
Wanton soul
Enmeshed within
Eros’ hold

Gullible fool
Prudence frowns
In dark orgasm
Angels drown

SCORPIO

Canine howl
Light of moon
Tarots show
Impending doom

Silent tread
Vindictive sting
Upon the road
Of no redeem

Wad thou sow
So shall reap
Feed yer fill
On poison meat

SAGITTARIUS

Lunar thirteen
Jupiter glow
Guiding light
Centaurian bow

For beginnings
Forgotten end
Achievement noth
Chaotic plans

Careless archer
Blinded kill
Own beloved
Blood shall spill

CAPRICORN

Mark of winter
Fish form Pan
Flee thy wrath
Of Typhon’s hand

Pessimist mind
Fate thou yield
Flawed belief
Fate thou sealed

Drench thy heart
In dark misery
Morbid morose
Utter melancholy

AQUARIUS

Water maiden
Bearer to Gods
Them be knownst
The Reptile Lords

Fill them cups
With bloody wine
In perversity
She shall dine

Raven indulge
Rebellious ways
Stairway ruin
Far not lays

PISCES

Bonded unison
Mother and son
Aphrodite Heros
Aquatic one

Secretive being
Hidden thoughts
Vileness birth
Devious sort

Treacherous surge
Imminent doom
Watery grave
Silence tomb

~ sorrow x ~

Seven

2006-01-05T13:13:00.001+08:00

AVARICE

For this sin
In hell yer boil
In the richness
Velvety oil

Born with noth
The fat lady sings
Where death leads
Nothing to bring

ENVY

Jealously green
Grief be bare
On thou neighbor
Grief declare

Opulent riches
Optical rape
Fan the flames
Of burning hate

GLUTTONY

Upon the fare
Heavenly wine
With abandon
Man to swine

But to cross
That invisible line
What goes in
Comes out in time

LUST

Beauty form
Countless face
On the screens
Presence grace

When all is gone
Wrinkled old peel
Hope there is
For the plastic heal

PRIDE

Bitter talons
Men of rule
Upon the masses
Slave fit fools

May God thou
Bless the meek
For they are
Truly weak

SLOTH

Deliberate flow
Sands of time
Night comes forth
Day behind

Flute of Pan
Dreamy notes
Bag of weed
Intoxicating float

WRATH

Redden fury
Demon hate
Restraint lost
Mental raped

Berserker eyes
Hell unfold
Burning fire
Bloody cold

~ sorrow x ~

Tarots Again

2006-01-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

THE EMPRESS

Fertile womb
Child comes forth
Joy at first
Doubt it morphed

Smother with kiss
Vacillating frown
Unwanted birth
Offspring I drown

THE LOVERS

Ever tightly
We embrace
Never sick
Of other’s face

Of new love
Forced us part
Murder did I
And kept his heart

THE CHARIOT

Sign screams out
The letters cry
On road it leads
Satan’s lie

Still I sped
Through the gloom
Over the cliffs
Of Impending doom

WHEEL OF FORTUNE

Fate I spun
On thy wheels
Of cursed fortune
May they reveal

Sight be shaded
Round it goes
Afraid to glance
Wad future holds

STRENGTH

Lion maiden
To calm the beast
Serenade song
Each breath heaves

But burden be great
She shoulders alone
Hunger of beast
She alone atones

To flee constraints
Upon each try
Deep within
Another part dies

HANGED MAN

Flocks of dark
At grounds to hang
Fate determined
Life condemned

Feed on eyes
As they were bread
For nothing more
Than hanging dead

TEMPERANCE

Humane heart
Filled with greed
Foul creative
In it breeds

Yield did I
Debauchery calls
Selfish pits
Endless I fall

THE TOWER

From tower heights
Through air I fall
Grasp nothing
Flail arms claw

Upon the ground
To never hit
Endless hell
Of screaming fits

Face of death
Is nothing new
But wait of death
Is wad seems cruel

THE STAR

Star light
Star bright
Across the sky
Take flight

I wish I may
I wish I might
But all yer gave
Me more blight

THE MOON

La Luna hangs
High above glade
Wane some nights
Reaper’s blade

Nocturne beauty
Be yer enslaved
Lead the blind
Upon own grave

THE SUN

Giver of life
Giver of light
Giver of day
Balance set right

But in time
Dim yer will
Upon the lands
Shall chaos kill

For to create
In time be damned
Cycle runs
Accord to plan

JUDGEMENT

The end of days
The end of nights
Judgment comes
Sinners’ fright

Heavens open
Horns declare
God never came
Was never there

THE WORLD

All be conscious
All be waves
From the depths
Of vortex maze

Born from sin
Born from lust
Black devours
Return to dust

~ sorrow x ~

TAROTS

2006-01-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

THE FOOL

Shrouded in oblivion
The fool in his ways
And thus be trapped
In own mental maze

Coz wad of knowledge
Yer think yer possess?
To elude from truth
Another fool at best

THE MAGICIAN

Won’t yer be
Enchanted by me?
Blinded by ruse
Illusions yer see

Give yer laughter
And give yer joy
In exchange for all
Yer soul to toy

HIGH PRIESTESS

Blessings yer seek
Blessings I grant
The more I give
The more yer demand

When none is left
All said and done
But still yer whine
Shot yer with gun

THE EMPEROR

Over the masses
With dictated rule
Bleed them dry
Call me cruel

And when it's time
To set them free
To arms I will
For a killing spree

HIEROPHANT

In search of answers
Far did I go
Over the mountains
And rivers flow

Bliss now gone
What little I had
Being enlightened
I feel more dread

HERMIT

Away I hid
From the crowds
Away from sorrow
Away from rowd

Found yer did
Wads left of me
A bag of bones
Skeleton only

JUSTICE

The scales I hold
Justice I keep
May good prevail
And evil weep

But scales be tipped
With gold in sight
With fold I blind
Leave yer to plight

DEATH

Here I come
God in black
Leave yer wills
Leave yer crap

Yer time is up
The sands are dry
Now now my dear…
Dun yer cry
Pull the plug
Yer have to die

DEVIL

They say I tempt
They say I lure
All be lies
Seemingly obscure

Evil yer did
The Devil yer blame
Responsibilities
Pushed to my name

Condemn yer soul
The choice yer did
Malicious thoughts
Yer chose to breed
Now burn in hell
And bring some weed

~ sorrow x ~

Tagged X

2006-01-02T03:22:00.000+08:00

been tagged by AVS to share 5 of my unique weirdness with everyone, here it goes.....

1. no serious talk - coz sorrow x is actually shallow x, noth intelligient to say

2. not much personal info on blog or anywhere else - i doubt a few lines can accurately describe anyone, but i guess people love to talk about themselves

3. i am not weird - i call it sPEciaL, eSPecIALly impaired

4. doesnt follow tag instructions closely - sorrow x always gets outta point

5. a waste of effort to tag - read above

yesh, this is the real sorrow x. noth unique, but vErY SpeCIAl.....

X

2006-01-01T04:55:00.000+08:00

Joint Poem

2006-01-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

Sorrow X welcomes all to another round of joint poetry...here we go again

SUN KILL MOON

Darkest hours
Darkest night
Deathly silence
Darkness height

Note

2005-12-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

Shall go for a break, my juices have gone dry.....and because matters of concern, that have been increasingly prioritzed in any thought processes that occur. thus i continue to seek, to satisfy hunger for knowledge be it orthodox or unorthodox, soaking up morbidity and drown in torrents of dark filth. till then.....if or never

morbidly yers

~ sorrow x ~

Note

2005-11-27T13:13:00.000+08:00

Finally got the "Sorrowful Picks" section fixed, these are my recommended favourites. Do read through some of them if yer have the time.....

~ sorrow x ~

Joint Poem

2005-11-25T20:57:00.001+08:00

Finally.....it ends.....so how yer like it? Like to dedicate this piece to Deity and Chaos for their engagement on dec 1st, good luck guys.

*Just received a part from AVS, gonna include it as well

DEAD MAN WALKING

Weeping souls
In dead of night
Sing their songs
Of death and blight

Ephipany of sorrows calling
Sorrows hunting twitching
It is of chaos the pain'll strive
It is of order the pain'll die

If we summon charon
For stygian trips
How he suffers us
The malignant deserts

Desert the crumbling hearts
To dust the earth
With death-
songs heaved
Within each breath

Until the soul
In endless flight
Finds its solace
In the darkening night

For chorus of death
Shall ring no bound
To prey on weak
Blood thirst of hound

So travel on
Endless quest
Cold heart
Caged in that chest

Tread across a bridge of sand,
Fleeting thought turn and give chase
To spidersilk memories of days gone by
As the sand slips slowly away.

Fear not, carry on
The journey is not all that long
The distance, an illusion
A miasma that will pass

Not another step you'll have to take
For the answers are inside of thee
Let go of all that bind
And slide away unto yourself

Just another lost soul throbbing
As the blood-thirst heart come forth
Alas death! unending unrest!
As I am bound to each step's dictate...
I commence myself to thee

For everything ends in me
Melacholy of death shadows me
Soon, Vanity becomes all reasons, for now I hear
Execution awaits in mental prison
Just another dead man walking

They wrote.....

2nd stanza -

3rd -

4th -

5th -

7th -

8th -

9th/10th -

11th -

AtomicVelvetSigh

Final -

Cookiss99

Special mention -

Lauren

Thank yer all for contributing

morbidly yers
~ sorrow x ~

Joint Poem

2005-11-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

allo allo, i'll start off with a paragraph. however yer wanna continue, just leave it in the comments. but do remember to read the comments before yers, and continue from there, it'll make it easier for me to include everyone who has contributed. not sure this is the best way to do it, do tell me if yer have suggestions for improvement. write away.....

~ sorrow x ~

Weeping souls
In dead of night
Sing their songs
Of death and blight

Deem Me

2005-11-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

Deem me psycho
If yer must
Deem me absurd
Without just

Deem me evil
Of morbid rants
Deem me dark
In poetic attempts

Deem me blatant
Deem me crude
Oblivious to those
With much prude

Deem me ignorant
Deem me a fool
Deem me a puppet
The devil’s tool

Deem me sinned
Deem me cursed
Deem me pagan
In hell I immerse

Deem me obnoxious
Deem me vile
For all yer deem
I deem myself

For I am X
But neither am I
Born with name
But nameless am I

For all yer judge
No shadow it casts
Deem me psycho
If yer must……

~ sorrow x ~

Lies

2005-11-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

To control mass media
Is to control the populate
The crimes be shrouded
Continue they operate

An instrument of illusion
News isn’t news
To brainwash the masses
With their dictated views

Of threatening legions
And political unrest
Chao ab ordo
A well planned mess

Do not be fooled
The mighty are pawns
Unveil the smokescreen
For truth shall dawn

For wad of freedom
Yer think yer possess?
Slaves of tyranny
Yer life is excess

All is one
And one is all
Stench of hypocrisy
The villains stand tall

The symbols reveal
Of what they intend
The righteous phonies
With malicious intent

Religious doctrines
To rule and divide
Bloody wars declared
Amongst us we fight

That is the order
To keep crowds in line
For they be predictable
In falsity they bind

Knowledge is power
Kept by elite few
History repeats
Nothing is new

If thou shall be oblivious
Humanity at stake
For future generations
Sufferings we maketh

These dark times
The hours before dawn
To pull through this period
A new age be born

We hold the upcoming
Fate does not bound
To unite our hearts
Thus salvation be found

~ sorrow x ~

(Chao ab ordo - order out of chaos)

Nocturne

2005-11-14T12:13:00.000+08:00

Dreams of night
Caressing wind
Snow felled land
Tranquility scene

Lake of calm
On forest vale
Illuminate by
Moonlight pale

Tender gloom
Amongst the hills
Swathe across
Endless mill

Though day
Has given way
And darkness
Upon land lay

Dark night watches
As hours burn
Serendous chord
Amorous nocturne

~ x ~

(Written to the music of Secret Garden – Nocturne)

Nocturne - A painting of a night scene. An instrumental composition of a pensive, dreamy mood, especially one for the piano.

I hear voices.....

2005-11-03T05:00:00.000+08:00

Fucking voices
In my head
Weights a ton
Of molten lead

One who sings
Another cries
One lonely voice
Tells me to die

An angry one
Blames the world
Wadever wounds
My tortured soul

One voice mocks
My ugly state
All these voices
Cannot shake

Countless pills
Swallowed dry
To save myself
From mind gone wry

Of no good
Have they done
Only makes
My senses numb

Fucking voices
Cry aloud
Self is drowned
In tempest cloud

Bash my head
Till I bleed
On brittle walls
Dents I knead

But still they be
Will never cease
Ever louder
They increase

That all leaves
Me no choice
But to hear
That lonely voice

She who says
That life is cruel
Oh so bitter
Sorrow brews

The only way
To end my life
Will I free
From all this strife

At the temple
Gun in hand
A silent tear
Gun goes bang

~ suicide sorrow x ~

(Looks like I found that dark mood button after all.....)

HIGH

2005-10-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

Early in the morn
Beginning of day
Two Ecstasy pills
Keeps the troubles away

Not long after
If I can't cope
Couple of LSDs
Down my throat

By now I feel
Really kinda dopey
Hallucinating stuff
My vision is spotty

Right after lunch
A joint of Weed
One after another
To fulfill my need

To top things up
Abit of Ice
A tingling sensation
Ain't that nice?

No doubt some say
Virtue is nice
But in my opinion
Vice adds spice

Joy of tripping
I cannot relate
Explosion of senses
A cocktail grenade

A snort of Heroin
In a disco joint
Club lights flashing
Barely feel my loins

Music was banging
In my empty head
Feel like floating
On velvety bed

Then comes Cocaine
Took a large dose
When the cops arrived
I was semi comatose

Thrown behind bars
With big ugly gays
Covered my anus
God i will pray!

Thus ends the story
Before I bid goodbye
Still I must ask
Yer wanna get high???

~ spaced out x ~

(Idea for poem materialized while taking a crap)

Suicide X

2005-10-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

Former scars
On my wrist
Main vessels
I have missed

Death at first
Seemed so near
When blood dries
Left only tears

This time on
Will not fail
Under glare
Of moonlight pale

A cut to flesh
Feel so weak
Pain screams out
Senses gone bleak

Razor blade
Sink so deep
Bleed me dry
Make me weep

On my own
Crimson life
I lay down
No more strife

Won't be long
Body cold
I will find
Freedom for soul

From this vessel
Light as helium
Into darkness
And all oblivion

When life ends
Comes mystery
Light at the tunnel
Begins another story.....

~ sorrow x/suicide x ~

Love of Wind Gurl, Death of Torch Boy

2005-10-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

Now I must tell
Of a sad sad tale
Involving a girl
Born from gale

This child of wind
We call her Wing
Never of tempest
Moods of lovely spring

But a curse she has
For air will never still
Winds of great velocity
Where ever she sets heel

Of immense disaster
She brought her town
Boats flipped over
And animals drowned

A meeting was held
And the town people agreed
To lock Wind Gurl up
In their old storage fridge

And a hole was made
Just enough to glare
Out of her compartment
And blow dry people's hair

But this is not to be
How the story seals
A unfortunate event
Has yet to be unveiled

Along came Torch Boy
Warm tender and all
Would ignite their love
This cold lonely fall

Everyday he speaks
To Wing without fail
Locked in the fridge
Young heart gone frail

Many months have past
As their love grew
They talked of yesterdays
Over hot bubbling stew

At last they admitted
Feelings for the other
And a plan they hatched
To elope from the harbour

At half-past twelve
Full moon above
Torch boy came
With hammer and glove

The lock of imprisonment
He forcefully hit
As Wind Gurl's freedom
Edged closer by bit

Through long toil at last
The chains were free
The fridge door opened
And together they could flee

But have we forgetten
Of Wind Gurl's curse?
Out of the compartment
Vicious winds burst

This deathly exposure
Torch Boy couldn't shield
His flame was extinguished
Another line he'll never yield

Her love fell dead
Before her very eyes
The winds grew stonger
The water high tide

Waves of magnitude
Swept over the soulmates
Never be seen again
To joy of the populate

A lesson of truth
To be learnt from this case
Is to never place fire
In the blow dryer's face

THE END

~ sorrow x ~

Dedicated to beloved sis and friend, Wing - http://ah-wing.blogspot.com

POEM X

2005-10-05T11:41:00.000+08:00

The melancholy of one's heart
With tales untold
Drives down like a hatchet
On Thou tortured soul

Was not she who promised
To lift Thou of guilt
To free from the constraints
That Thou carefully built

Lady Love ye blind Thou
With gentle words of whisper
Encape Thou in a black looming fog
Can Thou never kiss her

Thy heart is dead
Thy soul gone cold
Death Thou beckon
Ye great entity of old

Thy hour groweth late
Thy time haveth come
Blood soak the heavens
Thy body goes numb.....

~sorrow x~